Maybe the Clomid helped this month...... I had a chemical pregnancy. I never would have known if I had not been paying such close attention to my body.
A few times last week, I woke up in the middle of the night to pee and would suddenly feel nauseous on my way back to the bed. I knew that wasn't normal for me. When it happened once I thought maybe I just ate something too late or too close to bedtime, but I knew something was up when it happened two or three other occassions.
Also my BBT kept rising and rising. My CM remained creamy. And for 7 days in a row after ovulation, I had faint positives on my OPK's. None of these signs were normal for me.
I planned to test with an HPT on 11 dpo (Easter Sunday...March 23). I woke up and first thing I did was pee'd and I remembered I had wanted to test. Too late. I decided that I would not drink anything the rest of the morning and wait 5 hours to pee and test then. After 4 hours I really needed to pee, so I went ahead and tested and after only 1-1/2 minutes, I saw a VERY faint, barely there second line on the HPT! I was like, "yeah, right." So I left the bathroom to get a bottle of water and came back and the 5 minute test time was completed and there was still the faint positive. I even got a magnifying glass to make sure I really was seeing this and it was sure enough there. I didn't want to get my hopes up too quickly, but I did start to tear up and said, "Please God, let it be!" I was thrilled as I decided I would test again in a few days when hopefully the hcg levels would increase and show me a dark positive! I drove to walgreens and bought a digital HPT just for the occasion!
Mike works a double shift on Sunday, so I spent the day cleaning house, washing both vehicles and mowing the lawn. I felt great and I had so much energy!
That night at bedtime, I started having mild cramps. They felt like period cramps, but my period was not due for 5 or 6 more days. I began to worry that maybe I'd done too much work during the day. I woke up in the middle of the night to pee and the cramps were still there. When I woke in the morning (Monday, March 24), the cramps were still there. I felt something wasn't right, so I decided to do the second HPT that morning when I woke up and it was.....negative :'-(
I was sad, but thankfully, I did not get my hopes up too much, so I was able to accept the fact without being completely heartbroken. It took almost THREE YEARS for this to happen and just like that....it's gone :'-(
I know it was just barely three weeks, and it wasn't anything more than a bundle of cells, but still.....that was going to be OUR baby.
A few times last week, I woke up in the middle of the night to pee and would suddenly feel nauseous on my way back to the bed. I knew that wasn't normal for me. When it happened once I thought maybe I just ate something too late or too close to bedtime, but I knew something was up when it happened two or three other occassions.
Also my BBT kept rising and rising. My CM remained creamy. And for 7 days in a row after ovulation, I had faint positives on my OPK's. None of these signs were normal for me.
I planned to test with an HPT on 11 dpo (Easter Sunday...March 23). I woke up and first thing I did was pee'd and I remembered I had wanted to test. Too late. I decided that I would not drink anything the rest of the morning and wait 5 hours to pee and test then. After 4 hours I really needed to pee, so I went ahead and tested and after only 1-1/2 minutes, I saw a VERY faint, barely there second line on the HPT! I was like, "yeah, right." So I left the bathroom to get a bottle of water and came back and the 5 minute test time was completed and there was still the faint positive. I even got a magnifying glass to make sure I really was seeing this and it was sure enough there. I didn't want to get my hopes up too quickly, but I did start to tear up and said, "Please God, let it be!" I was thrilled as I decided I would test again in a few days when hopefully the hcg levels would increase and show me a dark positive! I drove to walgreens and bought a digital HPT just for the occasion!
Mike works a double shift on Sunday, so I spent the day cleaning house, washing both vehicles and mowing the lawn. I felt great and I had so much energy!
That night at bedtime, I started having mild cramps. They felt like period cramps, but my period was not due for 5 or 6 more days. I began to worry that maybe I'd done too much work during the day. I woke up in the middle of the night to pee and the cramps were still there. When I woke in the morning (Monday, March 24), the cramps were still there. I felt something wasn't right, so I decided to do the second HPT that morning when I woke up and it was.....negative :'-(
I was sad, but thankfully, I did not get my hopes up too much, so I was able to accept the fact without being completely heartbroken. It took almost THREE YEARS for this to happen and just like that....it's gone :'-(
I know it was just barely three weeks, and it wasn't anything more than a bundle of cells, but still.....that was going to be OUR baby.
posted by Wolfie @ 6:21 PM
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